Broken Walls

James was exhausted mentally, physically and emotionally, his drive, enthusiasm and go-getter attitude was not getting him anywhere. He was doing well in his career in his home country, but because he had been taught not to rest on his oars, he decided to seek for better opportunities and exposure by migrating to the Western world.

Ever since he relocated his family to Toronto, his story has been different, he wonders sometimes late at night whether he had been hasty by relocating. His first few months were spent being hopeful and improving himself. The phrase "lack of Canadian experience" has almost become a curse that follows him everywhere he goes. All his effort to get something slightly related to what he was doing at home had been futile and right now the only word that aptly describes him is frustration.

As if that is not enough, he has been having issues in his relationship with his wife as she does not seem to 'understand' what he is going through. Frank had told his wife that she has to keep the home front while he works outside, that way the children will be well taken care of. As things are right now, someone needs to be working to bring in some income. Toke approached her husband about getting a clerical position with one of the employment agencies as an administrative assistant, but his response was startling, he went livid and asked her what he was doing wrong and if she was hungry. She gently told him, "no dear, but I see we are struggling and you have always been there for us. This is not to spite you in anyway but to step up my role as a help meet". Frank's ego had been bruised, he new he was drowning but he would not want his wife to work to sustain the family, that is his responsibility and he is failing now he thought. There has been quite a bit of tension between him and his wife,"so what else will have to give way before I hit rock bottom...? he thought to himself.

I am not sure what area of your life feels as if you are failing and the walls are broken. Perhaps you feel your walls are already broken and destroyed by fire. You are the only one who feels and knows the pain and hurt of that broken wall and shattered hope. Perhaps you were looking forward to a greener pasture, better opportunities, living life at its best because you are willing to work hard. However, what you are facing now seems like ruins of your dreams, have you failed in anyway? Maybe your spouse has stopped commenting on anything you do because it does not matter how hard you work your result or effort is almost predictable (failure).

Perhaps you have heard some hurtful remarks made by friends you trust so much and you have made up your mind to severe your ties to most relationships you have. Perhaps your friends have become your enemies in your heart because they have all the things you are worrying and dying to have, you wonder without being able to confide in anyone why your lot is the way it is. Perhaps you feel your wall is broken on the inside, a deep seated hurt that goes way back to your youth still haunts you and holds you captive, regardless of how you are perceived on the outside you are still a captive in your mind.

As a woman you find yourself attracting the wrong men, abusers, lazy, ignorant,users men who are only here for the now. Maybe you are a good looking,hardworking gentleman but the only kind of girls you find around you are the selfish ones. Where do you go from here you ask?

Nehemiah 2:13 NKJV

"And I went out by night through the Valley Gate to the Serpent Well and the Refuse Gate, and viewed the walls of Jerusalem which were broken down and its gates which were burned with fire".

=>You need to assess your situation and be clear about what has gone wrong and what you need to do, do not generalize by saying "I have problems"

=>Refrain from a quick fix, bandage solution.

=>Are you able to sort some of the things out by meeting with other believers? People who are knowledgeable in that area of your challenge?

=>Prayerfully approach those you think can help. 

The King and Queen threw their royal weight behind Nehemiah's project and provided for his need even though he was a servant in the palace. God is able to send you destiny helpers from quarters you can not imagine. Ensure you do your research about your area of challenge, do not accept what everyone is saying "They do not consider immigrant for that position, you have an accent, you have not worked long enough with the company" all these are excuses that you need to put aside and focus on what the Big God can do.

Nehemiah 6:9 NKJV

"For they all were trying to make us afraid, saying, “Their hands will be weakened in the work, and it will not be done.”

You will always have mockers whenever you attempt to build your broken walls. You need to block your ears to side comments that discourage and weary the heart. It may not look like it when you start but can you see a beautifully built city? You will have to battle, physically as well as in the place of prayer. Whatever you do, do not give in to the devil's discouragement. Nehemiah completed his task, YOU will accomplish yours and testify in Jesus name. May your RUINS become RICHES in Jesus name.

Shalom!